I should be so Lucky

Difficult to write anything at the moment after another rollercoaster week.

Monday and Tuesday were blissful at The Haven in Fulham. Thanks so much Rita and Nuala for their excellent chauffeuring/chatting service - it added to my enjoyment enormously! More about that another day.

Wednesday started brilliantly when I discovered over coffee that my lovely friends had an ulterior motive in inviting me to the cafe and handed me a sheet of paper covered with fab pictures of Kylie in Showgirl costume, on the back of which was written that I am to receive 2 tickets to her sellout concert at the 02 centre next July - exactly one year after my diagnosis. It was one of the few moments in my life when I can say I was speechless...as those around that table will confirm. I am already practising my disco diva dance moves... So a big thank you to the Kylie Consortium...

Wednesday finished well too with a trip to the ballet with Emily and Pippa and her daughter Alice to see Jewels at the ROH - very sparkly with divine costumes. In the theatre I can forget myself for a while - it offers a tangible release from the everyday pressure - and it was great to see Emily enjoying herself so much. Have resolved to do more of that.

On Thursday an ultrasound scan revealed that my tumour has not shrunk at all since the last scan (three chemos ago) but after my initial disappointment I decided to focus on the fact that at least it is half its original size. Not the result I was hoping for but perhaps not the end of the world.

On Friday I went for my MRI - this time listening to the three tenors singing 'My Way'. I have told them that they really have to improve their CD collection. My chat with the radiologist started well when he confirmed that my first MRI showed my tumour at 25mm x 25mm (smaller than I thought) and the fact that it is now only 12mm x 14mm is overall good news. He then said 'And the 8mm lump in the other breast is now only 3mm'. I don't know who was more suprised - me - because this is the first I've heard of another lump - or him that I didn't know. Apparently he wrote in his report to my consultant back in August that he recommended an ultrasound to determine what kind of lump it is. So here I am again - left in the dark until Tuesday when said consultant can explain to me what the hell is going on. I seriously suspect that he failed to read that bit of the report - but I will reserve judgement until then.

Anyway I don't suppose this news would have changed anything about my treatment - it will just be more difficult now to identify what kind of lump this new one is - although the fact that it appears to have responded to chemotherapy does not, in my view, bode well. Lop 'em both off is my current feeling but perhaps I will soften in time.